Today, today I am whole. I have become one complete entity over the course of this last year, and it is all attributed to you Momma. Growing, stretching to the max of my ability, you have given me the strength to push myself to my fullest potential. I have yet to come to exactly who I would like to be, have yet to even know who that woman is, but I’m closer than I’ve ever been because of you.
My thoughts have possessed me, through day and night. I’ve found myself awake in the middle of a deep sleep, found my mind wandering a saddening direction on many sleepless nights.
Despite this, I’ve always seen you at the end of the tunnel, with the light surrounding your person. I’ve always recognized your struggle and known your truths, always felt that your love surrounded me in warm embrace. Never, not even once, have I doubted your love for me.
That, that says something that words could never say.
Tonight, as I watched the sunset on the St. John’s River, I realized that you had also “set”. You had drifted far from me, drifted away to create something more beautiful than the human mind could ever contribute without the love of our Mother Nature. I realized that our love had only grown since you’ve been gone, and that I CAN in deed become whole without your presence and reassurance.
I know that you love me, I feel it in every step that I take.
Today, today I am whole, because of you. Because every single act of your life was a giant step for (wo)man-kind. Because in my eyes, you were always, and will always remain flawless, and the window to my future.
Now and forever, now more than ever- I love you [the ultimate mostest].
