I feel as though I haven’t grown at all in this year without you. I’ve struggled not to drown, emotionally, physically, and financially. I’ve become lost in myself, only to find myself more lost when seeking my way out of this maze. I’ve struggled to find reason in life, when I know that this is a question that will go forever unanswered. I wake up distraught, without any reason to be so. I feel as though I’m regressing, and I don’t know how to stop it without you. You were the water to my plant, and I feel dehydrated without you.
I love you Mommy. Maybe someday I’ll learn to become self suffice. I hope so, because if I don’t I’ll surely drown in myself.
